Dec 21 2008
Go Bears!!
Well, it looks like the Bears have something to play for tomorrow, which is good because they seem to not understand the significance and the rivalry between them and the Packers. Minnesota lost to the Falcons today, so the Bears need to win tomorrow and again against Houston, and the Vikings need to lose against the Giants. Seems unlikely, but you never know. I wanted to thank everyone who commented and read this blog for your support either with my recovery or anything else that I have written about. I never thought typing about myself would have been entertaining, but if it helps one person get help, then it is way worth it. Like I had mentioned before, I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy. Living every day with a thirst for something that kills you is the worst feeling in the world. But fighting it, and the won battle every day, gives me a sense of accomplishment. I think back to all the times I woke up, not knowing where the night or day went, seriously, mentally forgetting an entire day. I know I will be laying on my death bed one day, praying for one more day of life, and I have no one to blame but myself for wasting days. The fight against oneself is so hard. I would much rather be in the ring with a young, coke free, pre-rape Mike Tyson than have to battle this, and find ways to keep myself sane. But that is the Lord chose for me. Some people are way worse off. At least I appreciate every hour of every day. There is nothing like staring death in the face, when you’re yellow from jaundice, sick from withdrawl, forgetting your own name from the dementia tremors, to realize how precious life is. All those beer or Vodka commercials love to show a good time and people getting laid all day long, I have a commercial, show the drunk on the floor blacked out, with a bathtub full of vomit and blood in the toilet from kidney failure. The 160 bpm resting heart rate, the shakes from low magnesium and sugar, the failing liver, yellow eyes, cotton mouth, uncontrollable sweats, and the pending DUI court case. Not to mention that person is alone, having lost all they ever loved. That person will get up again and stumble to the store to buy more, that is the disease and that is what happens without help. That would not be a good Super Bowl halftime commercial. One in 10 people are alcoholics, that’s sad. Never be ashamed to admit you need help, you’re body will admit it when your dead, so use your head. (that rhymes 
ML
