Oct 08 2008
Nothing to say but WOW!!
Well, today was a very good day for me as I had a very favorable day in court. I am not going to get into the details, but as my brother said, there is something real about Karma. During my past drinking binges, when I would lie to everyone, drink myself stupid, and basically make dumb decisions, luck always seemed to go against me. I always felt sorry for myself, always thinking I was just unlucky or cursed, and usually, would talk myself into getting drunk again. Nowadays, I have been keeping the course, staying sober, taking care of myself, and it seems that my luck has changed. Maybe I am actually making my own luck. Today in court, something that really should not have happened, happened in my favor and I can only say that what I have done since my arrest must have helped. To anyone who gets any kind of alcohol related charge against them…..use that situation as a reason to turn your life around. As much as court has been a hassle, scary, and very very expensive, this whole experience has kept me on the right path. Every-time I go to court, and my officer that arrested me shows up, I get a chill down my spine, followed by an overwhelming sense of embarrassment and regret. I know that I am one of many many people that the officer has arrested and I am nothing more than a name and a mug shot on a report, but to me, that face with haunt me the rest of my life. Thankfully, it is the officer’s face I tremble around, and not the face of somebody that I could have hit or hurt, or killed. No amount of time in court, or no amount of fines could possibly be worse than knowing that I took a life. It took me 28 years to make my first major legal mistake, and I swore to myself, that after this is done, I will never step foot in a courtroom again because of something bad that I did. No craving or high is worth my soul.
