Sep 04 2008
Vicious Traditions
Today was the day of my DUI evaluation or should I say “you’re a freaking idiot” evaluation. It didn’t go as bad as I thought it would go, and I was very honest. I have a lot to be proud of since that fateful day that I was a moron, so it wasn’t so hard to talk about what happened and what I have done since then. Still, it’s always like a kick in the pants and embarrassing. All I can say is thank God that nothing worse happened and it’s over. There is not much to talk about today in the world of sports other than the Giants beat the Redskins. Yeah, that was exciting
. Didn’t seem like a very riviting game other than the few times I got to see Eli Manning get hit. I was hoping that the starter from Washington would get tired, because I love watching his backup, Hawaii grad Colt Brennen play. Mark my words, Brennen will be a stud someday. He has a rocket for an arm and he can run. He played the preseaon like a grizzled pro and I can only pray to the football Gods that he ends up with the Bears one day. He has more talent in his little toe than Orton and Grossman have put together. But, as a Bears fan, I am sure I will die, never seeing a quality all-star quarterback taking snaps. What would I expect from a franchise who’s last kiss ass QB was Sid Luckman?
Today was an interesting day for me as I was very busy at work and scared to death about my evaluation. Luckily, my brother came by and was able to calm me down a bit, and by the way, good luck bro, you deserve that spot….. So I don’t have much to write about today unless people would like to hear about the ins and out of the world of wireless technology. I like the idea of adding youtube clips to my blog, as it is something cool to watch after reading a ton, and usually I try to pick something funny. I picked this highlight today for a couple of reasons. This highlight is of a MMA fight involving Kazushi Sakuraba, a favorite MMA fighter of mine. He makes an amazing comeback from getting his butt kicked to win. It is an amazing thing to watch although very brutal. The song playing is from the band Vicious Traditions and I love this highlight as it shows what some tenacity and heart can do. I love the middle where the voice says “I will not die today.” Any addict that is trying to get normal again, says that in one way or another. They always say one day at a time, and that is true. Every human being fights death. An addict has the unique challenge of fighting death from an unlikely source, themselves. We not only have to fight against bad health, getting hit in a car, old age, whatever, we fight that ticking time bomb which is our addiction, that little demon on our shoulder, telling us to give up, that it will be Ok, that it will only be one drink. That little demon wants us to die. That little demon is ourselves. The part of us that wants to self destruct. That is what people don’t understand when they look at an addict. We fight stereotypes, financial, legal, relationship trouble, but the one constant, the one person that should want us to live, ourself, wants us to die sometimes. That’s when it’s time to push back, and tell everyone, our critics, our enemies, the bottle, the drug, and most importantly that bit of ourself that wants to hurt, No, I will not die today. ML
