Aug 28 2008
A Long Season
Wow, there have been four Bear preseason games and I can say that I have not been the least bit impressed with any of them. Granted, as all the players and coaches like to say on national TV, that the playbook is very small and they don’t gameplan for these games, the overall talent level looks pretty poor. I can’t believe that 2 years ago the Bears were playing the Colts in the Super Bowl. During the game, the channel had a little visual about the significance of the Bears and Colts playing their first games against one another. Sorry everyone, Peyton Manning is going to light them up. Short of Devin Hester having some Godlike game returning the ball, and Indy is arrogant enough to kick to him, I see that game being a 21 point blowout by halftime. The famous Bears defense looks slow and well, old. I would love to see them win again, but if the preseaon is any indication, it will be a long, hard to watch 16 games. I hope I’m wrong, but Lovie isn’t gonna be finding much love this year.
I got to see Dark Knight finally today and I have to say that I was blown away. It was amazing to see Heath Ledger as the Joker. I must say that my opinion of him was a little, well, messed up, after Brokeback Mountain, but he was amazing as the Clown Prince. Yes, I’m not a fan of Brokeback Mountain, never saw it, never will, if that makes me a bad person, then well, so be it. It’s a shame that Heath is dead now from drugs. I have a feeling no one will ever really know what truly happened to him, but it made me think as a recovering alchoholic. How many times did I go on a bender that pushed the limits of my mortality?? Way too many. Listening to people in AA, it seems that is the secret wish of all addicts, no matter your drug of choice. We all wanted to die at one point. We all hate who we are when we use, but that is the monster that takes over. Plenty of times, I took one more drink than I knew I could handle, secretly hoping my heart would stop, and the pain would end. There is a good quote from a favorite movie of mine, Blade. “Sooner or later, the thirst always wins.” That seems to be the motto in an addicts head. And as much as we hate it, it always comes back to that. I loved being told by someone at work that he had never dealt with an alchoholic before. Yeah, right, he never dealt with one that got help or admitted they were. Many people have some kind of addiction, smoking, drugs, sleep, sex, work, exercise, money, but why are the people that finally man up and say that they need and/or get help, are looked at like we carry the plague. I’ve seen it too many times. It’s a struggle I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. It’s 100% a personal and internal struggle, yet everyone around you takes it personally. It’s a fact of addiction. Anyone that has been there knows it. I wish I could pull my thoughts out of my head for everyone to see. When I drank, it wasn’t to hurt anyone but myself. All addicts are self destructive. Being a recovering addict means that I had to make a choice, I chose life, and although the past 8 years I didn’t always think that way, I’ve been to Hell and climbed back into the light, and I have no plans of grabbing a shovel and going back. Satan had his chance to take me, he missed, it’s time for me to kick his ass now for a while. ML
